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“Loss Time Accident”

John’s second studio album, “Loss Time Accident” was released in 2003. It is currently available for free download from this web site.

Album Credits:

Music and Lyrics by John Maxfield.

All parts performed by John Maxfield, except bass on “Shadows Follow You” and electric guitar loop on “Lay You Down,” which were performed by Zoran Tasic.

Engineered and Produced by John Maxfield and Zoran Tasic.
Released on CD Tuesday, June 2, 2003

Music and Lyrics Copyright 2003 John Maxfield, ASCAP. All Rights Reserved.

Lyrics:

01. Waste
02. The Last Word
03. Smoke And Mirrors
04. Under The Outside
05. Shadows Follow You
06. Fuel For Disease
07. Sixth Street
08. We’ve Seen Everything
09. Always The Same
10. Lay You Down

Waste

Fake- you fake until you break
You never get enough
Call your bluff
Hate- you hate what you can’t make
You always fuck it up
Call your bluff
Always such a pointless practice
Always try to do the best you can
But nothing grand
Always want to feel the missing
Pieces of your life you could not stand
Fall through your hands
And it’s a waste of breath
Too many sins to confess
It’s a waste of time
To look for answers you’ll never find
Take- the things you could not make
The one that got away
And throw her away
Say the things you meant to say
That got away from you
Tried and true
Disappointed and defeated
Helplessly incomplete and lost
At greater cost
Everybody knows your game
They’ll foil you with merciless neglect
What did you expect?
And it’s a waste of breath
Too many sins to confess
It’s a waste of time
To look for answers you’ll never find
It’s a waste of breath
If this is love
I’m not impressed
And it’s a waste of time
To look for answers you’ll never find
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The Last Word

She got a brand new apartment somewhere and
She bought herself an hour drive
She would come by and we both would get high
And do anything to feel alive
She acted scared when I said I don’t care
If I live tomorrow or if I die
She should have believed me
I know she agreed when she
Left me there hung out to dry
I don’t care if every day was grey or Kodachrome
I don’t care if she’s not there at night when I get home
I don’t care and I’m not scared to die young and alone
I don’t care that I could never make it on my own
Every day begins the same you wake up with your head on fire
Every night you wonder why you stay up late and say you’re tired
Every evening I can hear you say you love me
But you’re a liar
Every night you think that I can hear you cry yourself to sleep
And pray the Lord your soul to keep and
If you die before you wake
You’ll never bleed or bruise or break
I got the last word
I don’t know what to say
So how’s the weather?
So what’s your middle name?
She fell in love with a push and a shove
But she never had a broken heart
She was a bit of a cold hearted bitch
But it heard he when we split apart
She ran away when I started to say that
I had to be a better man
She said “Be who you are”
And she got in her car and then
Made extended travel plans
I don’t care if every day was grey or Kodachrome
I don’t care if she’s not there at night when I get home
I don’t care and I’m not scared to die young and alone
I don’t care that I could never make it on my own
Every day begins the same you wake up with your head on fire
Every night you wonder why you stay up late and say you’re tired
Every evening I can hear you say you love me
But you’re a liar
Every night you think that I can hear you cry yourself to sleep
And pray the Lord your soul to keep and
If you die before you wake
You’ll never bleed or bruise or break
I got the last word
I don’t know what to say
So how’s the weather?
So what’s your middle name?
I got the last word
I don’t know what to say
So how’s the weather?
So what’s your middle name?
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Smoke and Mirrors

Take a breath
Hold it in
This is how it all begins
Hide your face
Scar your skin
This is how it all begins
Its easy to hurt me
Ashes to dust in the wind
Its easy to hurt me
We live through the dirt we’re buried in
Smoke and mirrors and it
Disappears and you
Find your way through your mind
Smoke and mirrors and it
Reappears and you
Find no change over time
Make or break
This is it
This is how the game is played
Faces fade
And people change
But the pain remains the same
Its easy to hurt me
We live through the dirt we’re buried in
Smoke and mirrors and it
Disappears and you
Find your way through your mind
Smoke and mirrors and it
Reappears and you
Find no change over time
Smoke and mirrors and it
Disappears and you
Find your way through your mind
Smoke and mirrors and it
Reappears and you
Find no change over time
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Under The Outside

(This is a mic check)

What you feel is never real
It never makes any sense
What you think is not in sync with
The past or present tense
You’re always driving in the wrong gear
And crashing your car
Always screaming into deaf ears
As you play your guitar
And you don’t expect the world to ever
Know who you are
So you stop and start over again
Always running down under the outside
Always wondering how you’re getting inside
Time is running out under the outside
Everything you do is wrong
Everything you do is wrong
What you do leaves you black and blue
And you’re broken into pieces now
You have seen and you have been
Almost everywhere that isn’t allowed
You’re always fighting for the bad guy
And waiting your turn
And you’ve been broken into pieces now
You’re always cashing in a raincheck
You bleed yourself dry
But you stay alive no matter how hard you try
So you stop and start over again
Always running down under the outside
Always wondering how you’re getting inside
Time is running out under the outside
Everything you do is wrong
Everything you do is wrong
I will make myself be kind
As I run away from you
I will stay until I find
Something easier to do
So you stop and start over again
Always running down under the outside
Always wondering how you’re getting inside
Time is running out under the outside
Everything you do is wrong
Everything you do is wrong

(This is a mic check)
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Shadows Follow You

I want to take you to a dark place
Where you could never see my bad face
And you could never see the disgrace in my eyes
I’m sick of everything I live for
I’m sick of always being unsure
I’m sick of everything it means to you
You never seem to hear the truth
So here we are in the dark
Where its cold and lonely
So here we are in the dark
Where its old and only you
Can’t seem to find a place to hide
From thoughts of love and suicide
And when it goes away sometimes
The shadows follow you behind
I want to give you some protection
From what you see in your reflection
And help you see beyond your self-distorted mind
I want to help you but I don’t care
I want to kill you but its not fair
I’m sick of everything you mean to me
And everything you’ll never be
So here we are in the dark
Where its old and only you
Can’t seem to find a place to hide
From thoughts of love and suicide
And when it goes away sometimes
The shadows follow you behind
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Fuel for Disease

She’s making her promise
Taking her time with me
And I’m such a novice
She almost made me believe
That love could be easy
And I could be a better man
But she couldn’t teach me
What she didn’t understand
Please- what was I thinking of?
I could never have been in love
With her or someone else
But I’ll never hate her like I hate myself
Sweet like nicotine
Me killing me
Just what I need
Fuel for disease
Truth makes less sense than fiction
And constant contradiction
Always brings me pain
Upon it’s arrival
Fighting for survival
And ending up insane
She knows she’s forgiven
For every inhumane mistake
She never admitted
There’s nothing left for her to break
She’s smiling in silence
Thinking of what to say
That would take our alliance
And blow it all away
And I was trying to repair
What was never there in the first place
Two dead roses in a broken vase
Sweet like nicotine
Me killing me
Just what I need
Fuel for disease
Truth makes less sense than fiction
And constant contradiction
Always brings me pain
Upon it’s arrival
Fighting for survival
And ending up insane
Truth makes less sense than fiction
And constant contradiction
Always brings me pain
Upon it’s arrival
Fighting for survival
And ending up insane
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Sixth Street

Stuck in a bad dream
Caught in the high beams of city steets
Over my shoulder somebody older was after me
Shadows from sunlight over the city that never sleeps
Through crowds of people and smoke from the street
You were easy to see
And I could hear you calling out to me down at
Sixth and Thirty Four
We were looking for a place to be that we’d
Never been before
And after everything you’ve given me
You always leave me wanting more
Save it for another rainy day down at
Sixth and Third and Sixth and Thirty Four
Tunnel construction
Which way did I come from and
How do I leave?
Wrong ways and one lanes
Ghettos and A-Trains for scenery
Took highway nine and
Behind me a skyline I
Thought I’d never see
Waving goodbye and I know that I’ll see you
In my sleep
And I could hear you calling out to me down at
Sixth and Thirty Four
We were looking for a place to be that we’d
Never been before
And after everything you’ve given me
You always leave me wanting more
Save it for another rainy day down at
Sixth and Third but if
I found another place and time
And if I had to never say goodbye
I would never be hurtful or unkind
I would never want to know when or why
And I could hear you calling out to me down at
Sixth and Thirty Four
We were looking for a place to be that we’d
Never been before
And after everything you’ve given me
You always leave me wanting more
Save it for another rainy day down at
Sixth and Third and Sixth and Thirty Four
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We’ve Seen Everything

We tried to get this far
We died like superstars
We’ve been through the years
We’ve seen the face of fear
We’ve seen everything
We know everything
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Everything
But we can’t show anything
We took the time we had
We took the good and bad
We lost dignity
We gained misery
We’ve seen everything
We know everything
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Everything
But we can’t show anything
Save my mistakes
For apologies I’ll never make
Save my mistakes
For the chances that I’ll never take
Would you carry me?
Or would you bury me?
Would you carry me?
Or would you bury me?
We’ve seen everything
We know everything
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Everything
But we can’t show anything
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Always the Same

I thought I’d write you a love letter you’ll never read
I spoke your name I heard your voice and fell to my knees
I broke the phone at home alone so that it didn’t have to ring
I waited all damn winter long to hear the birds come home and sing
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
I want to shield you from the pain you showed me how to find
I want to give you my love and leave my hate behind
I want to tell you everything that I’m afraid to say
I want to hold you want to know you want to never go away
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
Nothing hurts me
Nothing helps me
Nothing else matters anymore
There’s nobody better
And if I get her
I’ll never let her go
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
And it’s always the same everyday
Oh no, nothing changes
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Lay You Down

It’s been a hundred years
Since all your tears began to fall
Not your fault
It’s been a long, long time
Since you could find the reasons why
But you’ll be fine
Lay you down, sleepy child
Lay you down, sleepy child
Lay you down, sleepy child
Lay you down, sleepy child
It’s been a million times
That you have tried and given up
You’re still tough
Lay you down, sleepy child
Lay you down, sleepy child
Lay you down, sleepy child
Lay you down, sleepy child
It’s been a long, long day
And you’ve had plenty to regret
But you’ll forget
It’s been a long, long day
And you’ve had plenty to regret
But you’ll forget
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Lyrics 2003 John M. Maxfield. Reprinted With Permission.

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Jun 2
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